As it turns from light to dark
My friends are all sleeping
But me, I can’t go to sleep
I’m wide-awake weeping
Just the thought of when I lost you
Makes me oh so sad
I remember it like it was yesterday
I felt so horribly bad
Everything was fine
Well that was what I thought
I loved being around you
And all the happiness you brought
The hugs and the kisses
Were so perfect to me
The connection between us
Was so easy to see

It’s also so hard for me
To see you walking down the street
I start remembering so many memories
They’re so hard to defeat
Its like they come back to haunt me
Every once in a while
Every little thing about you
Even your beautiful smile
The thought makes me sad
It all makes me melt inside
These are the feelings that I feel for you
The ones I’ve been trying to hide
But I can no longer do it
It’s killing me so fast
I thought we had it good
But I guess it couldn’t last
I don’t know what went wrong
Maybe it was too good to be true
Not knowing makes me go insane
I don’t know what to do
It makes me burn up inside
I can’t fight it anymore
I try to build a wall
But it always finds a door
I can’t quite find the reason why
You left me anyway
I treated you so well
I was so sure you would stay
Now I can’t get you out of my head
I miss you very much
I miss you not being here with me
And I miss your gentle touch

I miss your perfection
You were very kind
You always walked me home
Now I walk by myself
You left me all alone

You left me alone, I didn’t cry,
I didn’t call you didn’t try.
Out of all the things I chose you,
I said I love you I really do.

But now that you are with her,
I don’t know why I really care.
I tried to get over you,
But I realized that my love is true.

I did all I could to forget,
But I couldn’t do it you bet.
I waited for you on cold nights,
And watched over you from great heights.

Now that you have forgotten me,
I always stand under the tree.
Waiting for you to hold me tight,
And then I see you with her at night.
Finally you start coming to the tree,
just to say, you never loved me.

Welcome to my world
Where I'm all alone
In my room
Locked away, here from you

Can't see
Can't breath
Why did you leave
Because I'm all alone now
You never answer your phone

So now I'm siting in a dark and empty room
Fire burning all alone
Left behind
I hear no sound
Knowing now you're not around

I'm waiting here
All alone
Hoping you would answer your phone
But you wont
So I stop trying
And put a knife on to my throat

I slowly place the tip
Deep within the side
And that is when I make the gentle gliding slide
Across my throat
The blood, it drips
And all because I'm so alone
You left me here to die on my own!

I hope someday you'll understand
I will always need someone's hand
But now I know I shall never be alone
Because I'm dead!
Living with the spirits I saw in my head

So know you see
All you did to me
And you know you should have never let me be

Laying in a dark and empty room
Fire burning all alone
Left behind
I hear no sound
Knowing now your not around

I see you got my message
You came running through the door
Just so you could see me there
Laying on the floor
Then you are begging and pleading
Oh why are you leaving me
On this hell we call earth

Then you slowly realized
It was just what you did to me
And now you finally see
We were meant to be
But you let my life just slip away
And now you must pay

You left me here all alone
You never picked up the phone
But when you walking out that door
Your bags in your hand
You left me to die
On this forsaken land

And now siting in a dark and empty room
Fire burning
Your all alone
Left behind
You hear no sound
Knowing now I'm not around
You slowly go insane
Now you feel the pain you gave me

You came and went
as you pleased,
you didn't think
of how you'd hurt me.
You'd come back
and apologize,
I was stupid enough
to believe your lies.
I forgave you
and let you back in,
but you took advantage of my forgiving nature,
into your trap you pulled me in.
Now I am forever changed,
it's all because of you,
I trusted you with my heart,
but in the wind it blew.
You left me once again
to always wonder why,
you never gave me an explanation,
your sincerity was all a lie.
You left me all alone,
broken and afraid,
Now I'm forever condemned
to hide myself away.
I have so many things
I want to say to you
Some nice, others mean,
but at least I'd be true.
You left me here
to cry alone at night,
I feel so worthless,
it's just not right.
You make me feel so many things,
hurt, anger, pain,
I feel so unlovable

will I ever be whole again?

Akash as Avshesh